For those of you who haven’t been here in a while and were surprised to see it’d been updated, the Wall was updated in October and again in December 2001 & January 2002 - please see the Archives if you missed those updates, which were the first since January 2001.
Next up - thank you NOBODY for pointing out to me that I’d tagged everything 2001 on the January 2002 update. I figure that proves that nobody is reading this anymore except for a few of my closer friends, but none of THEM told me either. Duncan I expect something like that of, the rest of them have college degrees and brains and in some cases two (degrees, not brains). Of course, I also know my friends so I suspect this was yet another one of those “let’s see how long it takes her to notice” games that some of them oh so love.
I am happy to report that for the first time since the exact week I moved to Memphis in January 1988, we actually had a REAL snow. Four inches of gorgeous white stuff, so perfect that when I had to take the broom to get all the snow off my car Wednesday, I was shocked to find there was no ice underneath on the car. It lasted one good day and the lying weathermen told us we were going to get another inch or two the next day, but alas, no more snow, Thursday it mostly melted and by Friday it was totally gone. One thing that kind of unnerved me Thursday afternoon, while driving home from work, was the sight of all the dozens of snowmen I saw with no heads. What’s this, I thought, is someone going around decapitating all the snowmen in Midtown? And is this person anti-winter, or just anti-snowman? And just who is this beheader of snowmen, anyway? Kathy tells me the heads always fall off first, but just how could it be possible that every snowman in Midtown’s head melted off and fell in the EXACT SAME SPOT. I think what Andra said about it is right, there was a serial snowman killer on the loose. Snicker.
One thing I always love about when we get sleet/ice (we haven’t had snow in so long, up to now) the patio always freezes and it’s a riot to watch Baby and Dobie go sliding all over the patio. With the snow, I thought my Beagle/Dachshund, Tallulah, would hate it because she is so low to the ground… her little body is pretty much all squatty Dachshund body and legs, in some places the snow was taller than she was. But no, that turned out to not be the case - instead she turned into Lulu the Beagle/Dachshund Snowmobile! Every other minute or so I’d see this brown and black swoosh thru the snow, zipping from one end of the yard to the other. That was pretty funny so, since we had no ice this time, I didn’t miss the display of Dobermans on Ice too much.
Did I happen to mention I got a CD burner for Christmas? Yeah, one of those things I kept refusing to buy for myself because I knew better? I’m still trying to behave… everyone knows that’s something I needed like I needed a great big hole in my head, yup….
Nothing else really going on news-wise. Really.
Sometimes you gotta wonder about your subconscious. Like, lately when I’m asleep, I have been plagued by a series of dreams about ex-boyfriends. I find this really annoying when I wake up, because, save for maybe one or two, these are all people I refuse to think about or allow to even exist in conscious mind nowadays… as KC says, the days when I almost always remained friends with ex-boyfriends are long over!! So when those who I don’t allow to exist in conscious mind pop up in such a way in my subconscious, that just ticks me off even more than I was already p.o.’d to begin with. This has been such a frequent occurrence in recent weeks that I’ve been making myself think of something or someone in particular while I’m drifting off to sleep, in hopes I’ll dream about that instead of yet another ex - you know the supposed alleged deal about how whatever you think about when you’re going to sleep is what you’ll dream about? I’m here to tell you, it only works about 1 in every 10 times, that theory is BS. But what I do find interesting about some of these dreams, even though they annoy me, is some of the circumstances and some of the little details (what little I can remember anyway, I’m usually not very good at remembering all that much of what I dreamt the night before). This is stuff I never would have thought up on my own consciously, so like I said, sometimes you just gotta wonder. Here are some examples of some of the weirder dreams… if nothing else, they’re good for the entertainment value alone:
(1) Ex-boyfriend A: Calls me on the phone and, sounding somewhat alarming, asks me to come to (X city) immediately. Which I do, and after driving for pretty much an entire day and arriving to meet him at some place I never would have heard of anyway, I find him seated at a table full of shady-looking gangland types. And it would appear he has changed race, indeed, is a different color altogether. (Considering the person in question, that particular little detail is actually pretty hilarious.) Apparently he has also now lost the ability to speak, and writes on a cocktail napkin, “Go Home”. I start throwing a hissy fit and understandably so, seeing as how I’ve just driven about twenty hours and now I’m supposed to turn around and go home… riiiiiight. Still all I get is this “Go Home” thing. I make a particularly nasty two-word comment and, indeed, I turn on my heel and leave to go home. Driving off, I look to see him standing in the street and he has changed color once again - he’s blue! And then when I have to stop at a stoplight, I look again and now he’s the Grim Reaper. That’s all I remember of that one. About all the sense I can make of that dream, seeing as how I’m not particularly racist and thus that part just seemed really a weird detail in itself, and this person really has little in common with the Grim Reaper (that I know of anyway), about all the sense I can make of it is that the nasty two-word comment is pretty much exactly what I wish I’d said at the point of ending and left it at that… what the rest of that dream means, I have no idea.
(2) Ex-boyfriend A again, same day, different dream: For some reason I am where he is (which I would never be), and there’s this maze-like house involved, and this whole group of people including his friends and his parents are trying to hide me in various places in the maze-like house, because Ex-BF A’s significant other suspects I am there and wants to kill me. There are bunches of other people in the house too, and at one point when someone is trying to hide me somewhere, we come right up on Ex-BF A’s significant other - and since she doesn’t know me or know what I look like, she starts talking to me, much to the horror of whoever at that moment is trying to get me stashed somewhere. She leaves on her maniacal murder spree quest and they hide me again and there is so much activity going on with this person and that person trying to hide me that I actually don’t even see Ex-BF A until about maybe halfway through the dream, and at that point when I do see him, I demand to know why this is going on and why this woman is running all over this maze-like house like some crazed maniac wanting to kill me, and I do remember that I said in the dream, “(expletive deleted), (name deleted), what is her problem? I never was all that important to you anyway!” And so he opens his mouth to speak, and what comes out’s a mystery…. no, that’s a Replacements song. (snicker) No, really, he opens his mouth to speak and nothing comes out or if something did I don’t remember. And then there’s more of the desperate hiding me again, including being hidden by his mother which was pretty weird in itself, and then pretty soon after that I woke up, having managed to get through and out of that dream alive (or at least I think so). At some point in the dream I remember running around trying to find places to hide among all these racks and racks full of tapes and CDs - some of which I could tell you what they were if we had a few days to list them - so I suspect in that regard that was actually two different dreams wrapped into one, ha. Very weird. Next up…
(3) Ex-boyfriend B: I get this e-mail that says I have to come to (X city) immediately (familiar beginning, but this one was before the aforementioned dreams and it’s a different town anyway). When I get there Ex-BF B is tied up and gagged, so I untie the gag and well, guess what, yet another one who has apparently lost all ability to speak. So, guess what next, I simply leave. Much like the aforementioned dreams and just weird to have anyway as these are people I generally try to consciously forget exist anyhow, however I must admit the sudden verbalization dysfunction thing is not totally lost on me… I’m just puzzled a bit as to why I’ve been having such dreams lately. Next up…
(4) Ex-boyfriend C: This one’s really weird because this is not only an ex I like and am still friends with, but talk to in some form or fashion about every other day. In the dream it is the present day here and now and my life’s the same as it is every day and everything’s the same as it is when I’m awake. In the dream I’m sleeping and the phone rings and Ex-BF C is on the other end of the line and says, “I’m sorry, but we’ve got to break up” (or something like that). And I say, “What, are you kidding? I left you fifteen years ago!” (Which I did.) And he says, “Oh, that’s right,” and hangs up. Probably needless to say, the next day I called him just to make sure there were no underlying issues from the past or anything I wasn’t aware of. He of course thought it was hilarious and said maybe my subconscious is trying to tell me what a great big giant mistake I made, and we had a good laugh about that (as everyone, including Ex-BF C, knows that is maybe the only smart decision I ever made in my life!).
(5) Ex-boyfriend D: For some reason we are in the same city of (X), where I might be but probably wouldn’t be, and we just bump into each other and I say hey but - here we go again - another case of inability to verbalize. So we sit down on this park bench and he gets out this piece of paper and scribbles (and I swear this is exactly what it said): “My tongue was ripped out & roasted over a fire by a mass of hungry cannibals when (X person I know) and I went on a safari to Africa last year.” (I swear to god that’s exactly what it said.) The other interesting part about that particular detail of the dream is that Ex-BF D doesn’t know the aforementioned (X person I know) and thus would not have gone to the bathroom with this person, much less on a safari to Africa… isn’t the subconscious mind a riot sometimes?! Anyway, back to the dream… so I tell Ex-BF D he’s lying, and, looking incredulous, he tries to stick out his tongue and, indeed, has none. But still I say again that he’s lying, and suddenly, like magic, voila - he was lying, it’s there. But he still can’t speak. Yet again this sh*t is just so not lost on me… next…
(6) Ex-boyfriend E: The phone rings and he says “Call me right back”. So I dial the number, which is one that has remained in my memory for more than twenty years even though I can’t even remember my own cell phone number half the time. And I get that annoying operator recording: “The number you are trying to reach has been disconnected…” or whatever the crap it is that they say. At least that dream did make plenty of sense, Ex-BF E is not only someone that I still adore, as opposed to some other ex’s, but has been long gone from this world. Next…
(7) Ex-boyfriend F, who I am still more or less friends with even though we don’t see much of each other nowadays: I decide to go grab lunch at (X restaurant in town) and am not too terribly surprised to bump into Ex-BF F, seeing as how we used to go there pretty often back in the old days, so after some hi-how-are-ya’s (at least this one can speak!) we decide to sit and have lunch together, and after the meal when we’re saying bye I realize I have not said a word through the whole meal because I simply have not been able to get a word in edgewise, and in fact, didn’t even really try. Nope, some things just don’t ever change, not even in the subconscious!
And finally, to wind up the series of recent Ex-BF dreams, there is:
(8) Ex-boyfriend G, who shows up on my doorstep expecting to become the proverbial knight in shining armor, the prodigal Ex-BF expecting me to be willing to take him back after kicking him out of my life for so long… only to find the one true love of my life who is there instead is just about the last person he ever expected it to be. There’s probably more reality behind that one than any of the others and actually I’m really not at liberty to comment much, not right now anyway.
Anyway, since I didn’t really have anything else to chat about right now, there’s your Wall for February 2002, a rare view into the (albeit snoringly asleep and subconscious) psyche du Lynnster. ’til another time, maybe something really exciting will happen to share by then… ciao, peace, luv, & loud guitars…