Anorexia Jetsonia
Posted by Lynnster on October 10, 2008
I haven’t really been in a blogging mood, which I guess has been kind of obvious. And I hate that, because I have let something slip by on the music blog I absolutely did not mean to, but maybe I can get myself sort of re-motivated into things next week.
Anyway, no, I haven’t really been in a blogging mood, and apparently I’m not in an eating mood either. Which is kind of bad when you only eat maybe once a day and sometimes not anyway, which is kind of good when you’re almost too poor to eat anyway, but I know it’s not good and healthy to only eat maybe once a day and possibly even not.
I DO get hungry. It’s just that there’s nothing I want to eat, and if there is, after two bites I’m over it. Stuff I have eaten and liked my entire life – I don’t want it and/or it doesn’t taste good. Everything is just totally blah. In a way it’s a good thing that I don’t eat much when I eat anyway, but it’s just kind of disturbing to get two or three bites into something and just be like totally unable to finish.
The only things I really want to eat are breakfast food or Mexican food. But the way things are going – even though I’m too destitute to be able to go out to eat – if I COULD go eat at Cafe Ole every night this week, I’m afraid by night #2 I would be over that too and not want that either. Or Waffle House. Which is totally unimaginable to me that I could go in either and not feel like eating anything on the menu, but there ya go.
I was kind of jonesing for some Pancho’s today and like I said, Mexican food is one of the few things that sounds good these days. So since I had to go to the grocery store anyway, I picked up fixings for nachos and grabbed some Pancho’s dressing too and that pretty much satisfied the craving AND I did actually eat and it was good. Except I ate so little and there’s so much left that I could probably eat for the next week… and now I’m a little afraid I’m going to lose my appetite for the one thing I always have an appetite for. Plus I ate so little, but so way much more than I usually do, so now I’m stuffed and miserable.
I bought some bananas today because they looked good and appealing – which I’m sure I will eat. I like fruit, I just don’t buy much because normally most would wind up going to waste. Maybe I should just buy fruit for a while. But what if I start not wanting to eat fruit either?
Weren’t things supposed to be like The Jetsons by now anyway, where you just took a pill and bam, that was an entire meal, and we all fly our cars around instead of driving them and – right?
churlita said
I was like that for a while last year. I lost over 20 lbs and I was WAY too skinny. Then it just went away and I eat more than ever and everything sounds good. I’m not sure what that is, but it seems to ebb and flow with me.
Ron said
It kind of sounds to me like you’re depressed. Also, that’s a terrible sentence I just wrote from a structural standpoint.